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day by day i watch her as a friend, but i wish we could be so much more. i try to get close but she shies away from me when i do, and it crushes me so. i wonder for what i have done was a grave mistake, and i try not to ask the question out of fear of her thoughts, but as days go on i avoid the topic and she lets every other male treat her like a doll, dragging her around and picking her up and taking her shoes, with out respect of her. and yet i can not even touch her.
Am i an exception? or am i a nuisance to her? i am not sure. i am lost and torn by my thoughts and fears of what she does with others and her reasons to avoid me. it confuses me, it makes me fear that soon i will not even be able to be friends anymore.
I hide my feelings hoping to not cause her trouble, and yet the more i avoid her the more my heart burns and burns. to a point where a grown man will cry, that every day i stand by her side as a 'friend' and i burn from inside out.
RAGE, FEAR, PASSION, SUSPIC
i worry about someonei worry about someone,
about what they think of me,
about what they are to me,
when i want to help
but can only stand on the side as they cry
in front of me,
when all i can do is say everything
in my head that could possibly have changed what had happened.
i try to sleep
but the nightmares
of what could happen haunt me.
when i die a little,
every time their hurt.
time goes by and the more i Cry,
curse the misfortune that i can't let die,
cry the river that comes and goes
ask the questions that i don;t know,
to end up crazier than what i was.
try to find the answer in their eyes,
but lost for words
in fear of broken lies.
the innocent is lost,
and the tears begin to flow,
find the courage to push this sorrow,
to a bottle in my soul.
comes another day of worry,
i wish to see them in a hurry
to find nothing but an empty city.
i search for them,
and the conclusions are mine
i begin to fear in my mind.
my eyes are lost in the crowd,
searching for what isn;t found.
laughter, enjoyment, and b
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